and swallowed me whole. Or, at least that is what it feels like. I’ll tell you. If I had the option to go back in time, right now, I wouldn’t do it.
My last post was dated April 9/10… Who would know that change would come so quickly there after. On April 12th, my life, and those of my co-workers, changed forever. Our small insurance office was the target in an armed robbery. Which you can look at two different ways… 1) it was a once in a lifetime experience and 2) it was the scariest thing you’ll ever experience. Shortly after this robbery, I had to leave my position working for the family. As nice as it was to work for family, the robbery really changed my life. For several weeks afterwards sleep was barely an option – dreams were the enemy. We all know what sleep deprivation will do to a person… hallucinating noises and people in (and around) the house, I was cranky… it was like constant PMS…
Thankfully, in this time period Workers Comp finally got off their ass and got me into counseling. PTSD was the diagnosis and it has definitely screwed with my way of life in every way, shape and form. To give you an idea… on top of the hallucinations and crankiness, there were a lot of tears. There were places I couldn’t go that I had been going for years. The office, banks, restaurants, convenience stores… anywhere with cash and open doors scared the hell out of me. Actually, they still scare the hell out of me, I have (thanks to the counseling) been able to work on the anxiety that is associated with these places. I am not fully recovered, but I am steady on my way… I hope.
Since then, I have been working on myself, the house, and myself. I think I might start posting more regularly. Might as well, since I have soooooo much to do right now. Yes, that is sarcasm.
Goodnight!
